Here comes a bikini whale!

Alright guys, I’m just going to go ahead and prepare you for this one. It’s sad. Because tonight I’m thinking about my best friend in the whole world, who I love more than anything, and wish every day I could see one last time. To be honest, I’m at a loss for words on this one. What can you really say about the man who raised you that will express how much more than words he will ever mean to you? Daddy, this list is for you. I’ll always be your little girl.

El Paso- Marty Robbins

This was Daddy’s favorite song. That’s right, folks, I have allowed the evil country music into my mix. Here’s the thing, have you actually heard enough country to know you hate it so much? Because seriously… you think you’re so open-minded… but you think country consists of like a bunch of hillbilly folk banging on banjos and being drunk and racist. Just listen to this song. Once. For me?

I’m too Sexy – Right Said Fred

So right now you’re thinking one of two things (or possibly both of these things), What. The. Fuck? and/or you’re just taking my Freudian reference in “I’ll burn this whole city down” much more seriously. Well, let me stop you right there. My dad was possibly the funniest man I’ve ever met. He used to sing this song in the shower, and I used to sit in the bathroom while he was taking showers. If that’s not a normal thing for little kids, don’t tell me, my childhood is sacred. Anyway he had a really silly dance to it and everything. So, of course, I picked it up… as I did most of his traits (good and bad.) So I have this totally awesome picture of me circa 1995, in the shower, doing the Egyptian, with my hair spiked up in a Mohawk with soap suds, singing this song. I will try to find it one of these days. Too funny!

Tears in Heaven- Eric Clapton

You can probably guess why this song is on the list. In addition to the obvious, though, Eric Clapton is a legend and I can’t wait to see him live in Seoul next month. I’ll light one up for you to this song, Pops.

Drift AwayBob Segar

So.. OK.. I’m aware that I’m showing my Texas roots on this one, and I’m only slightly ashamed of it. But, everyone remembers the first movie they cried after, right? Mine was this weird Rodeo movie. I have no idea what it was called or what really happened. At the end, though, the rodeo clown dies and they play this song. I cried. Then whenever I heard this song after that I thought of the clown and cried. My dad laughed at me every time. Jerk!

Little Lies – Fleetwood Mac

I’ve told you before about our road trips to visit my grandma. That was Lena and Daddy time (my given name is Meredith, so he actually called me “Mere-Bear”.) I won’t tell you again about Fleetwood Mac, instead I’ll tell you a story about one of these road trips. I was just starting to read, so I read EVERY road sign. Well, we came upon a “Watch for Falling Rock” sign and for some reason it perplexed me. So I asked Daddy what it meant. He proceeded to tell me a story of an Indian chief whose son, “Falling Rock” had fallen in love with a girl from another tribe. Since their love was forbidden, they ran away, never to be seen again. Ever since, the chief, heartbroken, had put up signs all over the country saying, “Watch for Falling Rock.” Cute story, right? Here’s the kicker. I was literally 15 years old before I realized this story wasn’t true. I’m still skeptical.

Rock Lobster – The B-52s

Daddy and I could not resist dancing to this song. I learned every single silly dance I know dancing to the B-52s. If I ever need to just feel all around happy, this is the song. Just try listening to it without smiling. Try it! If you ever went to a party I threw, you know, when I get drunk and silly, this album comes out! You have my awesome father to thank for that.

Friend of the Devil- Grateful Dead

Daddy was a dead head. Kinda. Well he certainly made me one. This was the first song he helped me play on a jukebox. It cost a dime and I danced on his toes. This is a very fond memory and a dime extremely well spent.

My Name Is- Eminem

Stop with the head tilting already! Don’t you know I always justify the weirdness? So toward the end of his life, my dad was going through his mid-life crisis (and no, I’m not trying to be ironic.) He picked me up from school one day and asked me, “if you could have any car in the world, what would it be?” I was a teenage girl, so I picked a jeep. We drove straight to the dealership and bought one. My mother was furious. Soon after, he started hanging out with this silly white kid, Rory (he looked just like Eminem) but more importantly, he listened to nothing but rap. Dad and Rory were inseparable for a while. They tricked out the Jeep, then the home theater, and did a lot of coke. Anyway, this was the last album my dad ever bought me. In honor of his best bud, Rory. So, I love Eminem. What of it?

Nights in White Satin – The Moody Blues

Yes, I know it’s a really steamy love song. But another favorite of ours. We used to get stoned together and listen to this album. It was magnificent.

Baby Love – Diana Ross and the Supremes

I was Daddy’s baby. So when they asked me for a song to play as a father-daughter memorial kind of thing at his funeral. This was the one. I hadn’t cried about it at all until I heard this song. This happy-go-lucky, super upbeat song brought me to tears instantly.

Butterfly Kisses- Westlife

Warning: This song will make you cry. No matter how hard you are. No matter how much you hate country. No matter how much you hate your parents. You will cry. If you don’t, you’re soulless. No, but for real, I love you, Daddy.

Wishing you were somehow here again – Phantom of the Opera

You don’t have to actually listen to this song, but I want to share the story. Growing up an only child is different. You have to improvise during play time. I had a lot of stuffed animals and dolls (I still do, which some of you know) and I just knew there was life in them. So I talked to them all the time. But I also performed for them. My “thing”, as a child, was musicals. My favorite was Phantom of the Opera. I knew the entire play and I would perform it on repeat, casting myself as Christine and my “My-Size Barbie” as the Phantom. Daddy put up with hearing me sing this song sometimes five times a day, and back then I didn’t know how it felt… to really feel this song. Now I know.

Dead Flowers – The Rolling Stones

This one is actually for Bob. Who was like a father to me through a really hard time in my life. I think of you often, Bob, and wish things could have been different. Rest in Peace. I won’t forget to put roses on your grave.

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. John
    Jan 20, 2011 @ 01:34:28

    This is incredibly moving. Reading this makes me feel almost ashamed that I do not speak with my father, because, you don’t even get the choice. I also know how it feels to have a cherished relationship with someone and lose them, but you know exactly how to put it into words. This post is by far my favorite of yours. It is so moving. I hope one day our friendship blossoms into something so great that I get the honor of having a post dedicated to me. You are an amazing friend and I am 100% positive that your father thinks that you are the most amazing daughter ever. Never let go of how important these songs are to you, because I am sure somewhere your dad is somehow reading this and is constantly reminded of the amazing person you have grown to be. I love you and cherish what we have. ❤


  2. blackwatertown
    Jan 22, 2011 @ 01:28:27

    As John said, very moving.
    Great stories. Just so.


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